Reflection on the Past two Years of Middle School

The past to years I feel that I have really grown up as a person. Going into 7th grade I was shy, ha no idea what I was doing half the time and didn't really know who I was. Now coming out of 8th grade I'm more outgoing, don't care what people think, and now I know somewhat of who I am. This year and partly last year have really shown who my true friends are that are always there for me. I hope to stay close friends with them all threw high school. Besides the social aspect, sports has become a large part of my life. I had played basketball since 5th grade and now I am moving on from it. Really the only reason why I had stayed in it for so long is I didn't want to lose "friends". But now I know I love volleyball and will not play basketball anymore. All throughout my Middle school experience I have grown up mentally, physically, and emotionally.Middle school was a great stepping stone for me moving on to high school. 

Confidence

It is sometimes hard to say

You are tired of feeling this way

Never feeling like you belong

That no one wants you

Never feeling safe in your own shoes

That everyone is better then you

How much can you take?

When you look in the mirror you are not happy

At what you see

When it has just built up over time 

And know it is all fallen down at once

People say just suck it up

But is that really possible?

When you have falling so hard

it is hard to get back on your feet

Do you feel like nothing will get better some days?

You know you have friends to lean on

That say don’t worry everything will be ok

But the truth is you don’t feel like everything will be ok

After trying so hard to feel confident

Is it time to give up?

Is it time to think

You're beautiful

You're smart

People love you

You are perfect the way you are

Obstacles of Growing up

Life changes when you grow up

Remember when you were little

No worries in the world

You could just sit there and play for hours

Do what ever you want

And the only reason why you go to school

Is to play on the monkey bars

Do you remember?

Its hard to grow up

Sometimes it would just be easier

To imagine yourself as a little kid

It doesn’t matter if you have a guy by your side

What other people think of you

What you look like

Pretty or ugly

No dumb rumors start up that rip friends apart

Or just to pointless drama that happens

Why can't we just wash all this away?

Go back to the serenity of being young

This might be just life

We all must grow up

But does all the drama, rumors, or guys

Have to come with it?

Double personality

At one moment

You are fake

The worst person you cold possibly be

No matter what you do to other people

You must be on the top

Backstabbing

Lying

Leading people on 

How could one person be so mean?

How could you treat a person like that?

But in a slip second you turn to

What seems to be a nice person

Jokes around with you

Smiles and every chance

And is nice to you

But when it comes down to it

You are fake

And that’s all you will ever be to me 

Winter to Spring

As the snow slowly melts away

The freezing wind fades away

And the grass is now turning a bright green

Spring is just around the corner

But it seems to take forever to get here

When it finally reaches 40 degrees all

You can think it is

Wow soon I will be warm outside

All of the beautiful flowers will start to bloom

And you will wake up to birds chirping in your window

Warm spring breezes will set in

And the days will never end

It is hard to wait for warm days to come again

But when it turns to spring you will not be able to stop smiling

Weekend

A breath of fresh air

No more hard days at school

It might only be three days

But it is what we all need

Hang out with friends

No worries in the world

Friday night

Movies

Games

Sleepovers

What ever you want

Just having fun

Saturday

What I like to call the sleeping day

Sleep till noon

Have an awesome breakfast

Just watch movies

Or go for a nice long walk

Sundays are the last day of the weekend

Last day to relax

Sleep in late

Maybe go to church

If your parents drag you to it

By the end of the night

You are so tired

But you could care less

Because you are already

 counting down the days to your next 

Roses are Red

Violets are Blue

Valentines Sucks

And so do you

But I love Makenzie!!!

<3

Alone

Alone in the world

No one in sight

Cold dead air is the only thing out there in the mysterious world

Life as you know it is gone

Nothing seems to living

Trees are spiritless

The once green grass is a deep and dark black

And the sky is a eerie grey

Full of the ghosts of people that used to be there

As you stand there with no one

You heart pounds and tears run down your face

Your scared

Your worried

Anyone out there?

No one answers

Your alone in the breathless World

Every time

Every time this happens

I fall for them

They rip my heart apart

But the bad part is that

I still have feelings for them

When well I learn

Falling for a jerk

Never works out

After I fall out of love

It will be hard

But it must be done

Don’t fall for them

Don’t fall

Stop ripping out my heart

Simple Love

Love

It isn't simple as that

Love can rip you apart in a second

Make you do things you would never do

Your mind might go crazy

Or it could be right in front of you

And you never knew it

It make sense why everyone

Dreams about it

Thinks about it every moment of the day

And cries about it

But what's so special?

Why does everyone want it?

Love

It could be as simple as that

You find someone

You fall in love

I guess it's as simple as that   

Bad Decisions

One moment your life could change

You think everything will turn out

And nothing  damaging will happen

Say no

Say no

You will be called names

Loose who you are

Maybe even friends will turn their back on you

Is this really worth it?

 Saying yes could change your life ever

The way your look at yourself

The way people see you
When they glance at you
Horrible things will pass through their mined   

You entire way of life will change